things are happening so stupidly ;

i seriously dontknow what im doing with my life .

im like playing with my future right now .

still not getting serious , still being so immature .

my friends have grown up , trying their best to become a different person .

yet me becoming bad to worse .

my friends have also woken up , and yet me still doing ' what ' im doing .

im so , stupid . i kept having feelings which makes me feel , fuckedup .

why make myself feel likethat .. all my fault .

i dont know which word or phrase i should use to describe myself right now .

who i am now and what i am now .

i used to tell my friends that whatever i do is who i am .

but now i feel like its not right .

whatever im doing now , doesnt seem like who i am inside .

there's sooo many things , so many things i want to say .

but no one for me to tell .

i dont know what i should do now ...

and you , sorry , i know im still being so immature right now , going around telling people

stuffs that i promised you that i wont . i dont know why i tell them also , and ya , whatever i do

now makes you think that im , dontknow what kind of person . i dont really care .

because me myself feel that im not a good person , whatsoever it is .

sorry .

i miss the past me .